The Reasons Why I Think Like I Do.


When I tell I people who are christians some of my views their jaws drop to hear some of the things I might say because not only I was raised in the church but my parents had their own church.  So when I say there is nothing wrong with marijuana use they don’t know how I watched my father die of cancer from day-to-day suffering from this disease that was slowly killing him and when he told me the pills the doctor prescribed for him made him more sicker I felt was there any hope for him to live.  Why is it in a christian point a view this is a better way to heal yourself from something man-made that will only kill you? (I prayed to God please don’t let me die this way)

You could believe in something so much when you find out it’s not true you feel hoodwinked for example when I went to church I believed that God’s chosen ones could heal the sick because Jesus did it correct, if not why am I coming to church. About 2 years ago I started waking up feeling dizzy and tired, I felt when I woke up in the morning I didn’t get enough rest I would have to go back to bed to feel rested.  After a while going back to bed wasn’t helping because no matter how much I slept I still felt tired.  After being prayed for in church for healing I was still feeling the same way, I broke down one Sunday crying in the church bathroom thinking why would God want to kill me?  Finally I built up enough courage to go to the hospital where the doctor diagnosis me with sleep apnea.  The next sunday I went back to church and before the Pastor delivered his sermon he told his members that if you feel there is anything wrong with you health wise to go see the doctor.  I thought this is what the church was for if it wasn’t a place for healing then it must be a place for entertainment, So I came to the conclusion that I will only go to churches that entertain me. (Hallelujah)

Where I’m from Brooklyn!!!! There is a Church on every corner so many of them divided but if they would come together for one common goal for example to end poverty in its own ghetto WOW!!! It can be done because the church does have power to me it just doesn’t understand how much.


God gives Us 24/7

God gives us each day which starts over again and again with 24 hours being it’s time period,  7 days of starting over which seems like deja vu.  As the days go by we get older, we experience new things about life which my be good memories or terrible memories. Through the hours, minutes, and seconds he gives us time to make things right.

Adopted but not Forgotten….

I could hear the banging and yelling through my apartment and as looked out the door down the hallway I could hear Steven who looks like a young 16 years old boy but his real age is 21 banging on his mother door yelling “You don’t treat me right cause I’m adopted”.   Steven was hurt becaused he just learned he was adopted and it was too much for him to handle the anger, frustration, confusion, pain and hurt he felt, I felt it too cause I went through the same journey.  I wish at that moment I could talk to him tell him he’s not alone and I know how he feels.  Oh Steven!!! I said, to myself why you have to piss on your door and in the hallway shaking my head I knew the other neighbors would think he was plain nuts (crazy).  I knew he was just one of my brothers that is lost and he would have to find his self in this journey called life.  I can remember before this incident when I passed Steven in the hallway  to me he looked like a nice young man humble and quiet and you would never guess that he had so much emotions but at the same time he never knew I was like him.

Happy July 4th …. Lets Drank and Eat.

English: Jay-Z

English: Jay-Z (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

July 4th Fireworks

July 4th Fireworks (Photo credit: Sri Dhanush)

July 3rd Fireworks

July 3rd Fireworks (Photo credit: zappowbang)

Happy 4th of July everyone.  This is a holiday to remember from barbecue chicken,ribs,burgers, corn etc… 

When everything comes together from family,friends,grillin,food,beer,and firework works in the night enjoyed with people you dont even know what a holiday love it the prequel to thanks giving which I think is the best holiday. So enjoy and all you Jay z fans it couldn’t be more better.